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Nov. 9th, 2009 @ 08:37 pm soundtrack of my life
Current Mood: pessimisticpessimistic
Wine Red- The Hush Sound
Autumns Monologue- From Autumn to Ashes
Bulletproof- La Roux
Fair- Remy Zero
Whiskey Lullaby- Brad Paisley feat. Alison Krause
In The Deep- Bird York
Lost- Anouk
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stuffed thing
Oct. 8th, 2009 @ 06:18 pm lust in the dust
Current Mood: calmcalm
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sexy nascar
Aug. 21st, 2009 @ 07:05 pm (no subject)
It's been nearly a week with out Kevin. I am feeling a lot better. It's not like we ever hung out anymore anyways. He writes on his facebook how happy he is not that there is no drama and Kate replies to it "i wander why". Whatever. they used me as an excuse for there problems. now we shall see.
I will talk to him someday. Not for a few months though. I want to compose myself.
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cheeseburger
Aug. 16th, 2009 @ 02:48 pm it's done
Current Mood: pissed offpissed off
kevin wrote me this letter. he didn't even have the courage to tell me in person.

Beth,

Here is how things are for me right now. My life has changed, I knew it would. "Your" behavior has threatened my relationships and friendships with alot of people in many parts of my life. I can not lose these people and these things. I can not be surrounded by the drama and stress that comes with being around you. I can not be your savior everytime you cross a line. I just can not do it anymore. The conversation last night before the races I can't have anymore. I don't know if my mind was there working on the car. I could have made a mistake last night working on it. I don't like who I am sometimes because of you and your behaviors. I don't like to say things to hurt people, but I have to be honest with me as well as you. I wanted to be your friend and help you out, but I don't think anything I've done has stuck. I can't be around it anymore, what I may lose I may never replace. I know that. I need to do this for ME right now. I know what I want in my life, and things have to change. I know I'm responsible for ME, and I can't be ME because of you.

You make your own choices, and chose how to behave. That's "your" choice not someone elses. I won't be told that this is my fault, you are responsible for "you" not me. The only thing I'm guilty of is trying to help you and show you friendship. I can't listen to the excuses for your decisions anymore. I honestly feel stupid, that it took what it did for me to see it.

Here it is, this what I have wanted to say for awhile. I might be hated by everyone at work that knows you, but I guess I'm okay with it. I might become the asshole again, there might be shit said about me, but i'm okay with it because I need to do this for me. Please don't respond to this email. I really don't have anything else to say. I trust that your work relationship will remain professional toward me, as well me towards you.

Kevin




I am disgusted in him and how selfish he is.
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Jun. 29th, 2009 @ 09:25 pm first post
Current Mood: artisticartistic
Hey, It's Midori. I have a new super secret journal!
This journal is going to be friends only so comment to be added!
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